shoot I need some calming tea..... NERVES!!!

5 more sleepless nights and the moment of truth... I have to make up my mind by Tuesday... NOT today.. not tomorrow but Tuesday..... I wont be posting anything from now till who knows when.... You'll just hear about it when I come back Ok.. when would that be I hope in a couple of weeks... Please send some Pixie Dust my way I truly badly need it...


HAPPY THOUGHTS ! ! ! ! !'
- not working arrrrgghhhhhh

tea ? what tea ?? nothing works..

for the past 48 hours I have this clummy feeling.... what to do....ok I think I am going to try to sleep... you know that thing you do where you rest your whole being including your brain....

a new day with a fresh white tea and things to ponder...

to fly or not to fly that is the question.....

What kind of tea can help you ease your mind... tell me...

9-11-05 What were you doing 4 years ago? What did you do today? I have a not so happy experience at 12:30 AM when I was side swept by a RED SUV maybe a Ford or a Chevy model 90s. What made me so mad was I was not able to practice what I have been preaching to all my friends and family Presence of Mind. I was able to get out of the car and listen to His (Mid 20 Male Caucasian) his song and dance and even shake his hands and introduced himself as CHRISTIAN. Next thing I know he flea the crime scene. Maybe if it were daylight he would have not had the chance to do that. I tried to chase him but by the time I got on the ramp going towards route 1 I finally lost him since the highway forked to route one and Baltimore Pike. Now how many times I reran the scenario in my mind I have so many if only I listened to myself, if only I had my guard on and did not trust anybody I would have been suspicious enough from the moment I got out and demanded the insurance card and his license, if only I did not have faith in other human being that they have the same values that I have. That if the table was turned around I would not drive away but instead make sure the other party was ok and do the right thing. When I cannot do anything anymore about the situation I went back to Dennys at route 352 to meet with the State Trooper that the 911 operators had connected me to. He was nice enough to talk to me and helped me calm down. I know there was nothing they can do at that point but buzz the rest of the troopers for the description of the RED Truck. Flashback: he must have not acquired much damage since my car only came halfway the height of his vehicle but his paint left a nice mark on my car. Wishful thinking: How I was I can afford to pay for the things that they do at the TV series CSI New York. The Trooper did scrape some of the paint and so he can have a color to base his result and I guess he felt bad and he did say that they do try to capture people who do things like this. I hope I am one of the lucky ones who he can help. At this point I have accepted the fact that I am using my insurance to fix my car that I need to come up with the deductible, that my Insurance will go a notch higher to what I am paying now. But why do I want him caught? Because what he did was wrong. Because I don’t want anybody to experience what happened to me. Because people like him makes the insurance business crazy. Because people like him can make someone learn how to hate, be leery and untrusting regardless of RACE and COLOR.

I was stopped waiting to go, I did not want to cause and accident but accident found me.
And now I don’t understand how he can be where he is right now leading his life like nothing happened.

Now when I go to the mall, to work or anywhere. I will be watching. Paranoia can be your friend; it helps your senses UP.

9-11-05 Red SUV Ford/Chevy model 90s. Mid 20s Caucasian about 5-6 to 5-11 with clean-cut hair. Scene of the Crime Ramp from route 1 going to route 352 South Bound.


I hope you had a peaceful 9-11-05
Thank you for taking the time in reading and letting me vent. No tea can calm you down when this happens to you. Well that is how I feel about it right now.

how was your LAbor Day weekend....

Mine was very productive I think... Saturday morning we went to drop off our water collection at the National Guard in Vineland,NJ and that was a very good feeling. We wish we could have brought more. After our good deed for the day we went straight to the Korean BBQ Restaurant in Mt. Holly Yummy!!! Then off to the market next door. Fish, Hopia, Chippy, SPanish Bread etc. etc. etc. Thank God for the rented truck we were able to haul our grocery back home. That afternoon I got busy prep'ing for the cook out we're having Sunday! That was a feast! Again we had the fish that we bought earlier, Chicken and Beef BBQ, seasoned mackerel ( this was the highlite of our lunch Sunday!). Even if we did not get our usual spot at the Ridley Creek State Park we did end up in another good location ( next to a big dumpster!!! hehehehe ). After we got home we started our knitting and movie marathon... here are the titles of the stuff I saw this weekend... "Crash" .... then "Smile" .... and still trying to finish season 1 of "Lost" now you tell me some kind of title huh!

care packages...

I have found 24 beautiful soul who are on stand by for their care packages to be sent. If there's anybody out there who feel like mailing our friends who were VICTIMIZED by Katrina please email me at jackgeorge1984@yahoo.com and I will email you back for an address to mail it to. Soap, deodorants, toothpaste and any basic necessities that can be used.